Even when the events themselves may end, the emotions do not often turn off so easily. For better or worse, you have a heart just as I do.

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Even knowing that all must have met their end in the village, for some reason, many of those who were granted roles to fulfill died first. All three whom I chose died long before I did. Many of them killed without direction.

While I do not understand your exact feeling - it does resonate.