[jiji has to serve himself.... well, he doesn't mind. there is a clear pause where he was expecting cloud to do it for him, but when he doesn't, he will reach for a sake cup and bottle]
Mm... After a preliminary check upon everyone else.
Our group didn't have any that I noticed, but... [ uh, he kind of died immediately after, so he has no idea if they did have side effects actually ] Maybe these get worse every week.
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... You thinking of actually getting healed any time soon?
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Mm... After a preliminary check upon everyone else.
But I do feel settled enough to allow one, now.
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"To allow one"?
[ he repeats that because he missed jiji losing his mind as i was not online when it happened on thursday ]
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And so I decided that for as long as I felt that lingering displacement, I would not allow myself to be healed.
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[though he feels like he should clarify - ]
This morning, before trial... at the same time a memory was returned to me. So I do not think myself possessed by shadow.
[in case that's a concern.]
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It took a memory from you? That... trip.
[ there is no right word for going off on an adventure to get maimed ]
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... and it gave me a different one in its place. One in which I murdered one I considered a friend.
I had thought it mine until now, but now it clicks better - all the ways in which that venture affected me.
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[ what the fuck? ]
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[a tilt of his head]
But it was certainly not something that I had actually done... Even for as long as I have lived, I believe I have a possess a well enough memory.
[he's not higekiri]
But yes - it persisted until Saturday morning.
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As am I.
I imagine it affects every individual slightly differently... and that sits poorly with me.
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Unfortunately, we have quite some time ahead of us.
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